Ok, I am a hopeless, hopeless holiday addict. I can’t wait for the Publix commercials where the salt and pepper shakers eat everything on the table when the adults look away. (for those of you that don’t have Publix Shopping Centers, I am so sad for you, these holiday commercials make my day!) I also can’t wait for the tear jerking Hallmark commercials where the sleepy kids wake up to find Santa eating their cookies. I LOVE it. I LOVE it all! I know some people have issues with the commercialism aspect, but it all just reminds me of my wonderful childhood memories. My parents gave us some of the best Christmases ever! We decorated early and the whole month of December was just magical to me. It still is, and as far as I am concerned the decorations going up now just help it along.
On that note, here is my Lucy Christmas ornament. Go check out the details on how you can get one on my home page if you so desire!
And yes, I got out the Christmas tree for this pic. My kids, I am sure, will not let me take it down once they see it when they get home from school!
Lately I am very anxious about the future. While I had 4 commissions come in yesterday and sold a painting at the store my work is in, I still am far from financially secure. I want it now. NOW! Didn’t God get my memo that I should be featured in O Magazine and be able to take vacation getaways in Florence, Italy to recharge my creative batteries?? No? Oh. Hmmm. Ok. Once again coffee on my front porch will have to serve as my pick me up. It works for now. But really, anyone who reads this and knows Oprah, mention to her I paint these really cute dog paintings. She’d love em! Really. It could happen!
It is gorgeous right now. GORGEOUS. All I want to do is go play outside. Or at least just sit on the porch with some coffee. This week HAS to be a productive week for me. I have many paintings that HAVE to get done this week. I finished 2 sculptures today, a website for my husband, finished 3 ads and emailed them off to various magazines and papers for some clients. Yesterday I got done with 3 days of onsite design work and while I would love to play hookie, the holidays are coming and I have got to get all my work done! Look at my site later to see a bunch of new commissions that I have not had the time to upload yet. I will get to that too…I swear!
Sigh…maybe just one cup of coffee??
Waking up an hour early to get the kids ready for school by yourself and taking them so that I can sleep in an extra hour because I worked late the night before, then waking me up after you get back with a hot cup of coffee with the milk frothed the way you know I like it.
Looking at every painting after I am done and exlaiming, “Isn’t THIS one the cutest one yet??” (and always agreeing.)
Listening to every single marketing idea I have…over and over and over again.
Putting up with two huge crazy beasts for dogs even when you are not a dog person because you know I am.
Cleaning the kitchen.
Making me amazing dinners because you know I would just eat cereal instead of cook.
Doing the laundry.
Not complaining that I am messy. (Although, there IS order to my chaos!!)
Not complaining when I stay up late to work…again.
Scanning in my sketches for me.
Cutting down wood for me.
Telling me I am beautiful even when I am covered in paint, have not showered in a day and am wearing old sweatpants.
Listening to my crazy dog stories.
Picking up canvas from one side of town and paint on the other side of town for me.
Playing legos with the kids when I need to meet a deadline.
Rubbing my shoulders and feet every single night.
Kevin, you are my rock. Without you this all means nothing. I love you.
I did it again. I over extended myself and now I am up late trying to get it all done. It is 1am and I just finished a magazine layout and am supposed to do 3 brochures. That is not going to happen though. I am working onsite tomorrow to fill in for a designer at a college again and I will try to use my lunch hour for the brochures. And I promised a painting to be delivered Friday at 6:30pm. I am working onsite all day Friday as well. I am not complaining about the abundance of work, just the lack of time for it all. Or maybe the need for sleep. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could always pull the all nighters we used to in college??? Oh to have that energy again. When I stay up past 2am I wake up feeling like I have a hangover without having had all the fun the night before. Life is mean how that works!
On another note entirely, I met an amazing women today. She is a sales rep for the yellow pages and still wanted to meet with me even after I emphatically explained I have zero budget for advertising. She is just one of those people you instantly connect with. She said she woke up at 3:30am and decided to give me a free ad. Ok…. What is the catch??? She says that she is allowed to give out a few free ads to certain customers to help get ads in the book. For whatever divine reason she decided to give it to me. So I am getting an almost $1200 ad for free. Crazy! But I will take it! And after dicussing my future plans with her she said some things that yet again confirmed what I am doing on my personal project that is going wonderfully. I love when the universe conspires along with you when you are on the right path!!
And in one final note, the teeny tiny sculptures I made for my daughter are just too cute not to share. I am thinking Christmas ornaments….And again, need more time!!
There was a wonderful post by Keri Smith yesterday on her journal about being able to play for a living. Later, she added a comment that said she did not want to mislead anyone thinking that is how it has always been. For a long time she took jobs she hated and had to find the joy in them. It is so easy too look at other’s lives and think how great they have it and wonder what the heck we are doing wrong. I do it all the time. Right now I am in a phase where I am really happy and content with everything I am doing. And part of that is that I am doing 85% of what I love, but part of it is attitude. I still have to take graphic design jobs – I am doing a magazine layout today and working onsite Thurs, Fri, and Monday. I used to get upset over this, thinking, “When can I stop this??” Now I am so grateful for it. I welcome it. Not because I love that type of work now, but because it is work and I am grateful for the abundance of it lately. I think back to my first full time contract job. I was in the car over 2 hours a day (Atlanta traffic), leaving my 15 month old and 3 year old at home for the frst time and check this- doing real estate ads 8 hours a day! Woohoo! Talk about creative fullfillment!! In the past I have put high school logos on plastic cups and pompoms, did production for phonebooks, made banner ads for the internet, and the list goes on. I never can say I ever hated these things, I have always tried to be very grateful for the work. I also have always left when I knew I was mentally done with it. I have been lucky to get other work when I have quit my jobs. But maybe it is not luck. Maybe it is expecting new work to be there. I heard someone say the other day that we do not get what we deserve. We get what we expect. And sadly so many of us are conditioned to expect the worst. Here is my secret: I expect the best for my career. I expect it to bring me things I never dreamed of before. I get so excited to be on this journey in life. I have no idea where it will lead me. Will I still be painting a year from now? Who knows, but I expect a wonderful ride of twists and turns and ups and downs that I am sure will help me continue to grow as an artist and a person. Expect amazing things for your life. Just be prepared when it begins to happen!
Only took like a million different combinations of tries!
I feel just like Sophie now!